Well this one is for Beck really, who asked for a post. I'd really kind of forgotten about this blog thing. It's summer holidays. The holiday's are fun but completely exhausting especially seeing as these kids are constant in their requirements. I'm supposed to be job hunting again. That sounds entertaining. I wonder what will be next for 2013? So far it's fantastic. A person who has loved me his whole life is back and we are in discovery mode. I've been considering sharing things I never tell anyone and I'm revelling in his love. It's fantastic, simple and makes perfect sense. I'm smiling so hard that my cheeks hurt. I'm very hopeful that there isn't a catch. I'm out of my league in attractiveness since he is the most beautiful person I've ever seen. My kids absolutely adore him which is great. I've broken my resolution to not date out of the 25km radius of my home.. I've smashed that resolution out of the ball park. I'm trying very hard to feel brave until he gets here, but I'm confident that I'll still be his when my crazy cat lady years potentially begin.
I have a very sore throat. My sore throat is making me not want to do all the things I should be doing. It's interrupting my productivity. The interruptions are my biggest issues today. This interruption to my children's steady lives (they want it, they've told me, they love the smile on my face) The interruption of my singular existence where I look after me and the kids and no-one needs anything else. It's bizarre, this feeling of completion though, I'm happiest when cooking him a meal or making him coffee. I'm the happiest of happy people, even through a mega sore throat and all the interruptions. I guess after 5 years I'm finally willing to accept interruptions. Only the interruptions from this boy that I loved who has grown up into the man I still love. I've always loved him. It's an easy equation.
Now I just need a new job and to start Uni again. All while I wait until I see him again. I went on the most perfect first date. The very beginning of my walls crumbling. I keep thinking the word "Stay" and that's the most delightful word I can think of for this situation. Just not in regards to the stupid sore throat.
Today's revelation: When the family receives a big bucket of M&M's next time I should just let them scoff them because I wasted time every night counting out 30 each. They were yummy though, thanks Beck xx
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